Alarm rings in the background
"Its Sunday?"
Where is my phone?
"I am very weird. How do even I sleep at night? Things get pushed off the bed. That is why I don't have a girlfriend."
Oops, today is 13th. I need to hurry up.
Where are my formals? Hope that would be wearable. Be with me during the interview. OK. I know you will not answer but it is good to be with someone. It gives hope.
Here are my resume and 2 passports sized photo.
I have to wait for too long. They put me in the last of their list. I don't know whom to talk. It will probably take 2 hours for my turn. Till then I should motivate my self. You can share a few good words and thoughts if you want.
Let me give you a name, on the day of my interview. It will be cooler to call you by your name.
SF for a silent friend?
IF for an invisible friend?
ISF for an invisible silent friend?
Something heroic name should be given to you.
Am I talking to you so loudly? why did she say I am talking to myself? Anyway, leave it. I am going to talk to her. you can go and sleep. I am not going to share these moments with you.
This is not fair. Why am I the only one to get rejected in the last round? This was the last company. What will I do? You hear me?
I need you to talk to me. You know me better. What will I tell to my parents? What will I tell to my granny? Lakhs of rupees have been wasted. My dreams! My promises to myself? I failed myself. What was my mistake? I should have practised a little more. I need to go on to the bridge. I need air. I need you to talk to me. I need something to do. Something to change everything. I can't walk until the bridge, it makes me feel suffocated. I need to run.
Run Suraj Run.
It is so good here. The air is so fresh. The night is so calm and cool. No work, no rush, no traffic, no people. Sometimes nothing is everything. I will find something to do in my life. I am not that weak to fail so soon. I might be a self-talking weird guy but this makes me stronger as I never feel lonely and weak.
Why are my roommates calling me? They already know my result. How will I face them? They are placed and me? It sucks going back in the same room where I spent 4 years fighting with my thoughts and creepy comments. 6 missed calls, OMG what is happening?
A message from Sonali, waah! that is something good in this whole day.
"Hi, Suraj!
You spoke very well in the group discussion.
I couldn't make that round. All the best.
Get the Job and we will have a party.
From +919876543210
Time: 02:00Pm"
What at 2 Pm? My phone is crazy!
It is 9 pm now.
let me check my WhatsApp.
What?
10 messages from my roommates! 50 from dad! 5 from Sonali!
25 missed calls!
Dad:
"Good Morning!
All the best Janu.
How was your interview?
Your phone is not in the range. Call me when you get the network.
Still not there? Your mom is worried."
Oh, Papa! Why does he get so worried? I will call him after I reach my room.
Roommates:
"Hey, buddy!
It is ok. come to the room, we have something surprise for you.
It is getting too late to reply. Please don't die!
I was kidding. LOL.
Your dad called, call him as soon as you can."
Again Dad calling, is he sitting with the phone? Parents are the only soul who cares and make us feel important.
"Hello, Dad! I am ok.
Yes, I had dinner. I am with my friends.
I will see, which company will come.
No, I am not talking to myself anymore.
Yes, I remember, I will not allow my thoughts to overtake me.
Hello Mom :(!
I am OK.
I will call you back after I reach my room.
Bubye"
They all are crazy. You are my best friend. You are with me at this moment on the top of the bridge. If I fall, I will die, but I know you will save me. I should go to my room. Wait! I forget to check Sonali messages.
"Hey, Suraj!
This is my number. I am sorry to hear about the interview. They are stupid. They missed the best person.
Call me when you free.
there?
I am getting worried. Call soon."
Today, for the first time, she is being so good to me. I should go to my room.
Who is calling now? If I fall from this condition he will be blamed for my death. Why do I think of death? I am going to live longer. It is She! :)
No! No! No! Help, please! I can't swim. No, I can't die. The river is too deep. I don't fear to die but I can't die like this they will say it a suicide. No! help me.
Someone, please help me.
I am out of breath now. I can't control, I will intake the water. It is very cold, dark and horrible. You please help me. You are the only one who can help me. I am not talking to myself. I am talking to you. please help me. If I don't exist you will not exist either. please help me. Do some magic! Show some magic of multiple personality disorder. Show me some miracle of God. Help me I am dying. Any water fairy? Big fish? magician? Anyone, please help me. I am loosing my...
Next chapter:- Flashback
"Its Sunday?"
Where is my phone?
"I am very weird. How do even I sleep at night? Things get pushed off the bed. That is why I don't have a girlfriend."
Oops, today is 13th. I need to hurry up.
Where are my formals? Hope that would be wearable. Be with me during the interview. OK. I know you will not answer but it is good to be with someone. It gives hope.
Here are my resume and 2 passports sized photo.
I have to wait for too long. They put me in the last of their list. I don't know whom to talk. It will probably take 2 hours for my turn. Till then I should motivate my self. You can share a few good words and thoughts if you want.
Let me give you a name, on the day of my interview. It will be cooler to call you by your name.
SF for a silent friend?
IF for an invisible friend?
ISF for an invisible silent friend?
Something heroic name should be given to you.
Am I talking to you so loudly? why did she say I am talking to myself? Anyway, leave it. I am going to talk to her. you can go and sleep. I am not going to share these moments with you.
This is not fair. Why am I the only one to get rejected in the last round? This was the last company. What will I do? You hear me?
I need you to talk to me. You know me better. What will I tell to my parents? What will I tell to my granny? Lakhs of rupees have been wasted. My dreams! My promises to myself? I failed myself. What was my mistake? I should have practised a little more. I need to go on to the bridge. I need air. I need you to talk to me. I need something to do. Something to change everything. I can't walk until the bridge, it makes me feel suffocated. I need to run.
Run Suraj Run.
It is so good here. The air is so fresh. The night is so calm and cool. No work, no rush, no traffic, no people. Sometimes nothing is everything. I will find something to do in my life. I am not that weak to fail so soon. I might be a self-talking weird guy but this makes me stronger as I never feel lonely and weak.
Why are my roommates calling me? They already know my result. How will I face them? They are placed and me? It sucks going back in the same room where I spent 4 years fighting with my thoughts and creepy comments. 6 missed calls, OMG what is happening?
A message from Sonali, waah! that is something good in this whole day.
"Hi, Suraj!
You spoke very well in the group discussion.
I couldn't make that round. All the best.
Get the Job and we will have a party.
From +919876543210
Time: 02:00Pm"
What at 2 Pm? My phone is crazy!
It is 9 pm now.
let me check my WhatsApp.
What?
10 messages from my roommates! 50 from dad! 5 from Sonali!
25 missed calls!
Dad:
"Good Morning!
All the best Janu.
How was your interview?
Your phone is not in the range. Call me when you get the network.
Still not there? Your mom is worried."
Oh, Papa! Why does he get so worried? I will call him after I reach my room.
Roommates:
"Hey, buddy!
It is ok. come to the room, we have something surprise for you.
It is getting too late to reply. Please don't die!
I was kidding. LOL.
Your dad called, call him as soon as you can."
Again Dad calling, is he sitting with the phone? Parents are the only soul who cares and make us feel important.
"Hello, Dad! I am ok.
Yes, I had dinner. I am with my friends.
I will see, which company will come.
No, I am not talking to myself anymore.
Yes, I remember, I will not allow my thoughts to overtake me.
Hello Mom :(!
I am OK.
I will call you back after I reach my room.
Bubye"
They all are crazy. You are my best friend. You are with me at this moment on the top of the bridge. If I fall, I will die, but I know you will save me. I should go to my room. Wait! I forget to check Sonali messages.
"Hey, Suraj!
This is my number. I am sorry to hear about the interview. They are stupid. They missed the best person.
Call me when you free.
there?
I am getting worried. Call soon."
Today, for the first time, she is being so good to me. I should go to my room.
Who is calling now? If I fall from this condition he will be blamed for my death. Why do I think of death? I am going to live longer. It is She! :)
No! No! No! Help, please! I can't swim. No, I can't die. The river is too deep. I don't fear to die but I can't die like this they will say it a suicide. No! help me.
Someone, please help me.
I am out of breath now. I can't control, I will intake the water. It is very cold, dark and horrible. You please help me. You are the only one who can help me. I am not talking to myself. I am talking to you. please help me. If I don't exist you will not exist either. please help me. Do some magic! Show some magic of multiple personality disorder. Show me some miracle of God. Help me I am dying. Any water fairy? Big fish? magician? Anyone, please help me. I am loosing my...
Next chapter:- Flashback
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