Alarm Rings in the background.
You see how he sees me as if I murdered someone. I am just 15 mins late only. I have a project to show.
"Shit... Why this alarm rings so early? I slept so late. What is today? sunday? no no. yesterday was machining lab so today is Tuesday. Got to go for the project. I will try to sleep early today."
This is how my day started today. I have to submit my final report to the professor so that I can present that to the board on the 16th of March. I am on the autorickshaw. I use the rickshaw mirror to arrange my hairs. I didn't have a bath today so will need to arrange my hairs properly. Our mirror at the room lost somewhere. It may be under someone's bed or maybe under my bed.
Do I look fat?
Do I?
why don't you talk?
I am asking you yaar!
Anyway, you never reply to me. You know everything. People say a friend will understand me more I do to myself. No one is like me and no one likes me, so I am forced to be with a silent friend. That's you. Yes, you! don't see me like that, I have already said that I am a little different. Leave it, I reached my college. You just see me and laugh at me. That is all you can do.
Waaah that girl is here again. You know I like her. But it is too late to approach. You know Sonali was so beautiful in 1st year. She is now too, but I don't love her anymore. She is not good. She has made many boyfriends. She says, "Things and people change over time, I have to go with the changes until I get the perfect one." She is very modern. Even if we get into relation, I know it is impossible but even if. Then we will break very soon. She is very very modern.
Oops, I need to reach my department. Should I run? Many boys and girls are sitting here. I don't want to be a kid in front of them. But what kid? In movies, studious students run for the class. And their being late is very appreciated of course in little later. But I am not doing research work as they do in movies. Both are different circumstances how can I compare. Stop it Suraj, stop over thinking and run.
"May I come in sir?"
You see how he sees me as if I murdered someone. I am just 15 mins late only. I have a project to show.
Thank God! He didn't ask the reason for being late. Or he thinks I am always like this so no need to ask. Nothing will change even he ask or not. Why did I sit on the last bench? He will ask all the questions to me and will keep staring till last. Why do I do these mistakes?
Oh God! when this class will finish. I will need to study these all by myself. I am not understanding here anything. I know you might be thinking about why I don't ask my prof. Last time he asked 6 questions back to me. And he doesn't like Biharis. He thinks we are a cheater, irresponsible, and belongs to the most corrupt community. Whatever I don't care. I need to pass his paper that is all.
Why does everyone smile at me? Say to me please, do I look funny? No, no, they might be thinking why did I come to class. I know I am useless for the class and class is useless for me.
Finally, the class is over. Will he give the attendance? or Shall I ask? that is all I came for.
You know I have prepared the list of excuses for being so late for project submission. Want to hear? "Sir, I am really sorry for being so late. At first, I was preparing for the gate exam, secondly for Bark exam. Then for class tests. It is very hard for a person to be an engineer. We have to give an exam on every 4th day for four years. But I did try to learn something from myself. Here is the report please check and let me know the corrections needed"
Are you thinking it is a little extra? maybe. Let us see how things go with prof. ?
OMG, it was my lucky day. I know you didn't hear what prof. said. You only hear my thoughts or things what I say to you. Let me take Egg-Roll from the cantine then we will talk. I will need a company to eat together. You already know, I am not good at dealing with Bengalis and Biharis are preparing for some government exam. So, I am left with you.
Prof asked about my Gate exam and asked me to focus little more on the project for now. He said he was at my place a few years back so, he knows everything. I didn't have to make any excuse. He is so good. Why are other profs not like him?
I don't feel like how I was told years back about the college. Friends, enjoyment, girlfriends, movies, tours, parties every time, long drive and many more. Life was supposed to be a box of wonders not the wander for boxes.
Leave the emotions it is not good for the boys. I need a nap, have to go hurry to my room. Roommates might be playing music loudly. I will ask them to turn off the sound for a few hours. I will fight if I will need to. I will not be the same Suraj any more and they will see the first change today.
Why ask them to turn off, they will feel bad after all they are my family here, miles away from my actual home. I will cover my ears or push my ear on a pillow if needed to.
(he closes his eyes)
A girl(Anny): You are a mother's kid, immature person.
Another girl(Aati): You are egoistic, you don't care about others.
Dad: I am very old to work for longer. Get a government job.
Mom: So busy is my son to call.
Granny: When will you come?
GrandMom: I am alive to see you being an officer.
(He opens his eyes)
I can't sleep properly. Why does everyone expect a lot from me? Why does everyone have a different opinion about me? Although I am a single person. Is this life to maintain multiple identities uniquely to everyone's opinion or make them all realise of my unique identity or don't give a shit to any identity and their opinion?
But I do care about your opinion. And I know what you will say if you can. I need to go for a run. Not to run from things and situations but to run to learn about myself.
(While running)
I have to run slower with patience. Long journey takes time, the longer I want to run more the time I need to give. I should think about the moment which is painful to me, it will give me the strength to run for longer. Good things happen to give happiness and confidence but bad things give the strength and power beyond one can imagine. Synchronization between joy and pain is all about life. Run Suraj Run. Find a bad moment, harness its power. Run Suraj Run.
She hurt me. I loved her. She said she understands me but at a critical moment, she failed and left. I failed in gate exam. I have to show everyone. I will prove myself. Tomorrow will be the day of new beginning. Things will be different. Suraj will be different. Run Suraj Run. You wait and see. All things are set, finally, tomorrow will be the day, you will feel proud of being my friend.
Why does everyone smile at me? Say to me please, do I look funny? No, no, they might be thinking why did I come to class. I know I am useless for the class and class is useless for me.
Finally, the class is over. Will he give the attendance? or Shall I ask? that is all I came for.
You know I have prepared the list of excuses for being so late for project submission. Want to hear? "Sir, I am really sorry for being so late. At first, I was preparing for the gate exam, secondly for Bark exam. Then for class tests. It is very hard for a person to be an engineer. We have to give an exam on every 4th day for four years. But I did try to learn something from myself. Here is the report please check and let me know the corrections needed"
Are you thinking it is a little extra? maybe. Let us see how things go with prof. ?
OMG, it was my lucky day. I know you didn't hear what prof. said. You only hear my thoughts or things what I say to you. Let me take Egg-Roll from the cantine then we will talk. I will need a company to eat together. You already know, I am not good at dealing with Bengalis and Biharis are preparing for some government exam. So, I am left with you.
Prof asked about my Gate exam and asked me to focus little more on the project for now. He said he was at my place a few years back so, he knows everything. I didn't have to make any excuse. He is so good. Why are other profs not like him?
I don't feel like how I was told years back about the college. Friends, enjoyment, girlfriends, movies, tours, parties every time, long drive and many more. Life was supposed to be a box of wonders not the wander for boxes.
Leave the emotions it is not good for the boys. I need a nap, have to go hurry to my room. Roommates might be playing music loudly. I will ask them to turn off the sound for a few hours. I will fight if I will need to. I will not be the same Suraj any more and they will see the first change today.
Why ask them to turn off, they will feel bad after all they are my family here, miles away from my actual home. I will cover my ears or push my ear on a pillow if needed to.
(he closes his eyes)
A girl(Anny): You are a mother's kid, immature person.
Another girl(Aati): You are egoistic, you don't care about others.
Dad: I am very old to work for longer. Get a government job.
Mom: So busy is my son to call.
Granny: When will you come?
GrandMom: I am alive to see you being an officer.
(He opens his eyes)
I can't sleep properly. Why does everyone expect a lot from me? Why does everyone have a different opinion about me? Although I am a single person. Is this life to maintain multiple identities uniquely to everyone's opinion or make them all realise of my unique identity or don't give a shit to any identity and their opinion?
But I do care about your opinion. And I know what you will say if you can. I need to go for a run. Not to run from things and situations but to run to learn about myself.
(While running)
I have to run slower with patience. Long journey takes time, the longer I want to run more the time I need to give. I should think about the moment which is painful to me, it will give me the strength to run for longer. Good things happen to give happiness and confidence but bad things give the strength and power beyond one can imagine. Synchronization between joy and pain is all about life. Run Suraj Run. Find a bad moment, harness its power. Run Suraj Run.
She hurt me. I loved her. She said she understands me but at a critical moment, she failed and left. I failed in gate exam. I have to show everyone. I will prove myself. Tomorrow will be the day of new beginning. Things will be different. Suraj will be different. Run Suraj Run. You wait and see. All things are set, finally, tomorrow will be the day, you will feel proud of being my friend.
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